{"version":1,"type":"rich","provider_name":"Libsyn","provider_url":"https:\/\/www.libsyn.com","height":90,"width":600,"title":"Issue 143 - Jessica Drew","description":" Intro Welcome to Season 7 Having a baby girl in May :)  Pocus Hocus giveaway coming soon on IG Episode 150 coming soon Background Jessica Drew created by Archie Goodwin and Marie Severin in Marvel Spotlight #32 (Feb. 1977) In her first appearance, she was a spider who evolved into a human That was later retconned - her origin is when she was young, she became sick, and her father injected her with an experimental dose of irradiated spider\u2019s blood, and put her in a chamber to incubate, but while she was in there her mother died and her father left - she spent decades in the chamber, but came out only aged to 17 #BecauseComics THAT origin was then altered - her mother was hit with a beam of radiation with the DNA of several varieties of spiders, and her parents were actually working with\/for HYDRA as scientists She leaves Wundagore and is captured by HYDRA, who train her as a spy to assassinate Nick Fury - she accidentally kills her handler, at which point she discovers the truth and defects, becoming a SHIELD agent (also revealing that the \u201cevolved spider\u201d was part of HYDRA\u2019s brainwashing) Works as a private investigator while simultaneously being Spider-Woman Joins the New Avengers and helps the heroes recapture all the villains that escaped the Raft - later revealed that this was actually Skrull Queen Veranke in disguise, which led to the Secret Invasion Abigail Brand invites her to join SWORD and kill hostile aliens on Earth Played a major part in Spider-Verse After that, she quit the Avengers and began focusing on small-time help, using Ben Urich and Roger Gocking, the reformed Porcupine, as aides Recently gave birth, using artificial insemination from an anonymous donor - her son Gerry inherited her powers Issues (11:32) From Ruby - reluctance in trusting others Constantly having to reassure people she's not Vernake (17:05) Earlier in career, dealing with distance & uncertainty around people because of her lack of familiarity with them (22:40) Break (28:50) Plugs for BetterHelp, Nerd Crusade, and Howard Mackie Treatment (30:20) In-universe - Focus on genetics, including passing it along to Gerry Out of universe - Focus on trauma - similar to Dr. Scarlet (guest on our Black Widow episode) (34:04) Skit (feat. Jessica from Girls Talk Comics) (41:35) Doc: Hello Jessica, I\u2019m Dr. Issues. Jessica: *sarcastically joking\/tongue in cheek* What\u2019s up, Doc? D: Hardy har har, never heard that one before. J: Sorry, had to get that out. D: Understood. Bad jokes are hard to let go. So, what can I help you untangle in your psyche? J:Touche. I *yawn* sorry, Gerry-my son-kept me up last night, and I\u2019m trying my hardest to get my 3 functioning neurons to cooperate. Do you have any kids? D: Sure do. I remember those nights. Never enough coffee. J: If I could walk around with a permanent IV drip of espresso, it wouldn\u2019t be enough some days. Why do we do this to ourselves? D: It\u2019s biologically driven, because kids are cute meat blobs that would die without us. J: Yeah, they are adorable little parasites, aren\u2019t they? Sucking the life and the soul out of you all the time, and yet one smile or laugh and they give it all back. D: *laughs* Before this gets too dark, we really should talk about how caring for a child is affecting you. J: Me personally or the superheroing? D: Well\u2026whichever one makes you the most distressed? I can guess though, because most people feel like they only should focus on the personal side and tend to throw any other part of their life to the wayside\u2026not that I agree with that, but that\u2019s the tendency I\u2019ve observed. J: I dunno\u2026 I guess the super stuff stresses me out more, at least as it relates to him. Because it seems like it\u2019s less natural to me than being a mom, even though I never fully envisioned myself as either\u2026 if that makes any kinda sense, I realize this is the caffeinated ramblings of an exhausted parent, but I\u2019m really trying my best not to fall over here. D: Mommy brain (and daddy brain, for that matter) are a real thing. You\u2019re making sense.  J: OK good. It\u2019s just\u2026 I wasn\u2019t really *raised*, per se, I was incubated. Relating to people never came easy for me. Certainly didn\u2019t have any great parental figures to speak of, unless you count Bova, and I don\u2019t know any normal people who were raised by a humanoid cow. So when I decided to have Gerry, it was like finishing a puzzle where I didn\u2019t realize I was missing any pieces. Every day with him has been a joy. D: Then let\u2019s say you\u2019re doing the best job you can with him. What\u2019s the problem with being a superhero? *pause* That\u2019s a moronic thing to ask, huh? J: Not the dumbest question I\u2019ve heard today. My\u2026 partner had a complete misunderstanding about feeding Gerry today, and I had to explain that infants are not supposed to eat Lindor truffles. Anyway, to your point\u2026 it\u2019s more about the fact that I\u2019ve had these powers and skillset for a long time, and I still don\u2019t entirely feel comfortable with them. Having a kid on top of it\u2026 it feels like an uncomfortable suit that I can\u2019t take off. And if you crack a joke about my costume, I\u2019ll zap you so hard you\u2019ll wake up next week. D: I have no intentions of agitating you. The random mix of events that led you to your current life are not something to mock. Let me say from the start that there\u2019s no such thing as getting it all exactly right. Do you have any resentment about your status? I\u2019ve met plenty of people that wish for things to be different. J: Oh I got past the resentment part ages ago. Yeah, it ate me up for a long time, and yes I took it out on some people that probably didn\u2019t deserve it. But then I wouldn\u2019t be where I am, and I probably wouldn\u2019t have Gerry. So in that respect it works out. The thing that gets me is more about\u2026 feeling this, pull, obligation, whatever you wanna call it, towards the hero thing. It\u2019s like, I\u2019m doing the mom thing, but then I need to get out because if I don\u2019t leave the house someone is going to get hurt, likely Roger, so I get some fresh air. While I\u2019m taking my break, someone inevitably needs help, because everyone in New York City is incapable of going more than a week without being attacked by some souped-up genetic mistake, so then I have to swoop in and save their sorry ass, because otherwise word will get out that Spider-Woman just happened to be there and didn\u2019t lift a damn finger, and that gives Jameson more fuel for his anti-spider editorials, which is gonna send Parker into a tizzy, and I don\u2019t need that agita, so it\u2019s easier just to save them and move on. D: That\u2026sounds like there maaaaaay be a little bit of left over resentment there\u2026just sayin. Not blaming you, but wow is that an emotional bag to carry. J: Chalk it up to exhaustion. When you get this tired, anything\u2019s liable to come outta my mouth. But I guess I wasn\u2019t as adjusted about this as I thought. Hmph. D: That\u2019s OK, at least you\u2019re aware of it now. I\u2019m a pretty good sounding board. Feel free to blast away\u2026um, not literally. A bit of disclosure here, but I have a similar style to how I deal with exhaustion. No filter. But, that makes me worry, when do you recharge, and how? Can\u2019t when you\u2019re crimefighting, can\u2019t be when you\u2019re taking care of Gerry, so\u2026 J: Carol has been clutch when I need a breather, and especially if we\u2019re out and something goes down, she\u2019s waaaaay better equipped to handle stuff than I am. So I sit back and let her wail away on the dude, and then we go on our merry way.  D: Nice delegation. I like it. I need to do more of that myself. Thanks for the reminder. So, what\u2019s your ideal balance? Brainstorm it. No idea is too crazy. J: Hoo boy, that\u2019s asking a lot for the already exhausted hamster upstairs, but I\u2019ll kick him in the ass and see what I can come up with. Umm\u2026 *phone vibrates* Dammit, hold on a sec, it\u2019s Roger. I told him only to message me if it\u2019s an emergency, and\u2026 *pause* Alright, I gotta go. D: Everything OK? J: If by \u201cOK\u201d you mean \u201cmy kid sparked an electrical fire that burnt a hole through the kitchen wall and spread to my neighbor\u2019s place\u201d, then yeah, it\u2019s peachy keen. Sorry Doc, we\u2019ll pick this up again next time. And maybe then I\u2019ll bring a few extra neurons to make it an even half dozen, and we can have a real conversation. Ending Recommended reading: Spider-Woman vol 6 by Dennis Hallum & Javier Rodriguez Next episodes: Terra, Ben Grimm, Alex Summers Plugs for social References: \u201cHelpless\u201d from Hamilton - Doc (8:12) Dr. Janina Scarlet\/Black Widow episode - Anthony (34:15) Apple Podcasts: here Google Play: here Stitcher: here TuneIn: here iHeartRadio: here Spotify: here Twitter Facebook Patreon TeePublic Discord ","author_name":"Capes On the Couch - Where Comics Get Counseling","author_url":"https:\/\/www.capesonthecouch.com","html":"