{"version":1,"type":"rich","provider_name":"Libsyn","provider_url":"https:\/\/www.libsyn.com","height":90,"width":600,"title":"Finding Your Own Inner Peace","description":"At 18 years old, Elijah Kai put a loaded gun in his mouth and pulled the trigger. It didn't fire. What followed was two decades of searching \u2014 therapy, religion, hustle, two marriages, a felony, and a life spent building a character convincing enough that nobody, including him, could see the pain underneath. In this episode of I Love Being Sober, we sit down with spiritual teacher, Divine Architect, and author Elijah Kai to talk about the moment everything changed \u2014 and the truth he discovered on the other side of suffering. Elijah breaks down why the traditional approaches to healing, recovery, and sobriety so often fall short, what recidivism really tells us about identity, and why the peace you've been chasing your entire life has been underneath you this whole time. If you're in recovery, fighting to stay sober, or simply trying to understand why you keep returning to old patterns \u2014 this episode will crack something open in you. In this episode, we cover:   Why 20 years of therapy, religion, and hustle couldn't fix what wasn't broken   The difference between thought and thinking \u2014 and why it matters in recovery   What recidivism reveals about identity and the cycle of relapse   How to remember who you were before the world got its hands on you   The moment Elijah stopped trying to fix himself and found he was already whole   Resources mentioned: Already Whole by Elijah Kai \u2014 available now elijahkai.com Belief Theory Institute ","author_name":"I Love Being Sober","author_url":"https:\/\/www.camelbackrecovery.com\/","html":"<iframe title=\"Libsyn Player\" style=\"border: none\" src=\"\/\/html5-player.libsyn.com\/embed\/episode\/id\/41547595\/height\/90\/theme\/custom\/thumbnail\/yes\/direction\/forward\/render-playlist\/no\/custom-color\/3d9aa4\/\" height=\"90\" width=\"600\" scrolling=\"no\"  allowfullscreen webkitallowfullscreen mozallowfullscreen oallowfullscreen msallowfullscreen><\/iframe>","thumbnail_url":"https:\/\/assets.libsyn.com\/secure\/content\/202746355"}