{"version":1,"type":"rich","provider_name":"Libsyn","provider_url":"https:\/\/www.libsyn.com","height":90,"width":600,"title":"My Relationship with Alcohol: How I Rebuilt Myself After Rock Bottom","description":"  \u26a0\ufe0f Heads up \u2014 this episode talks openly about alcohol, drinking habits, and some very dark moments. If you are going through something similar right now, this one is for you.    This is one of the most personal episodes I have ever recorded.    After leaving the military, I fell apart. I was in a job I hated, my marriage was collapsing, and I was drinking every single day to numb the pain. I didn't even realise I had a problem until I cleared away ten bottles of spirits in a week. I was drunk the night I planned to take my own life.    This episode is not a lecture. It is a raw, honest account of what alcohol can do to a high-performing man when the pressure builds and there is no outlet \u2014 and how I found my way back.    Inside this episode:    \u2022What happened when I left the military and everything fell apart overnight    \u2022How I used alcohol to numb the pain of a life I no longer recognised    \u2022The moment my son said &quot;please don't fall asleep, Dad&quot; \u2014 and how that changed everything    \u2022How running literally saved my life and helped me get off the drink    \u2022Why men use alcohol as a pressure valve \u2014 and when it crosses the line    \u2022The difference between a social drink and a dangerous habit    \u2022Why suppression always catches up with you eventually    \u2022How I rebuilt my direction, my fitness, and my identity from scratch    You can come back from anything. Don't let anyone \u2014 including yourself \u2014 tell you otherwise.   &amp;nbsp; 14 Day Mission Sprint &amp;gt;&amp;nbsp;message me the word READY on my instagrma page &amp;gt; https:\/\/www.instagram.com\/jamesboardmanuk\/ &amp;nbsp;  If this episode hit a nerve and you are ready to start rebuilding, join the 5 Day Mission Reset here: https:\/\/consulting.boardmanjames.com\/5daymissionresetdetails     And if you know someone who needs to hear this today, send it to them.    Let's get to work.  ","author_name":"Men, Mindset &amp; Mission","author_url":"https:\/\/boardmanjames.com","html":"<iframe title=\"Libsyn Player\" style=\"border: none\" src=\"\/\/html5-player.libsyn.com\/embed\/episode\/id\/41174790\/height\/90\/theme\/custom\/thumbnail\/yes\/direction\/forward\/render-playlist\/no\/custom-color\/88AA3C\/\" height=\"90\" width=\"600\" scrolling=\"no\"  allowfullscreen webkitallowfullscreen mozallowfullscreen oallowfullscreen msallowfullscreen><\/iframe>","thumbnail_url":"https:\/\/assets.libsyn.com\/secure\/item\/41174790"}