{"version":1,"type":"rich","provider_name":"Libsyn","provider_url":"https:\/\/www.libsyn.com","height":90,"width":600,"title":"The Hidden Cost of Betrayal Trauma in Friendship [Moon's Field Notes #2]","description":"In this Field Note, I\u2019m reflecting on something I didn\u2019t have language for for a long time: the difference between continuity and intimacy in friendship, and how betrayal trauma can quietly train us to prioritize staying over being seen. This isn\u2019t therapy or advice. I\u2019m not diagnosing anyone. It\u2019s me thinking out loud about patterns I learned in order to survive and how being \u201ca good friend\u201d can sometimes mean minimizing yourself, and how relationships can last a long time without actually being nourishing. I talk about: \u2665 how loyalty and endurance can replace intimacy \u2665 why continuity often feels safer than being seen \u2665 how self-erasure sneaks in through morality, patience, and being \u201clow-maintenance\u201d \u2665 and what it looks like to start choosing nourishment over just staying If you\u2019ve ever felt proud that a friendship didn\u2019t end, while quietly feeling empty inside it, this might resonate. Take what fits. Leave the rest. And be gentle with yourself as you notice what intimacy actually means to you. Moon\u2019s Field Notes is for us. For the ones who weren\u2019t taught but kept learning anyway. For the ones who had to become their own caretakers, their own narrators, their own soft landing. https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=nVyl5xC15Tc ","author_name":"Moon Silk Audios","author_url":"https:\/\/www.moonsilkaudios.com\/exclusive-audios","html":"<iframe title=\"Libsyn Player\" style=\"border: none\" src=\"\/\/html5-player.libsyn.com\/embed\/episode\/id\/39850875\/height\/90\/theme\/custom\/thumbnail\/yes\/direction\/forward\/render-playlist\/no\/custom-color\/88AA3C\/\" height=\"90\" width=\"600\" scrolling=\"no\"  allowfullscreen webkitallowfullscreen mozallowfullscreen oallowfullscreen msallowfullscreen><\/iframe>","thumbnail_url":"https:\/\/assets.libsyn.com\/secure\/content\/197807485"}