{"version":1,"type":"rich","provider_name":"Libsyn","provider_url":"https:\/\/www.libsyn.com","height":90,"width":600,"title":"I lost her then i lost me. A raw conversation about grief, loss, and the fear of becoming someone new","description":"What if the hardest part of being real\u2026 is letting people see it? We almost didn\u2019t record this. The voice in my head said: Don\u2019t show too much. Don\u2019t be too much. But I\u2019m tired of that voice. Tired of searching for safety instead of being it. If you haven't yet joined my inner circle of friends, my life-letter readers, please do. You will be the first person I share everything with. I'd love to have you. Go here to join us. Brian and I recorded this audio-only episode while we were out at a caf\u00e9 in Naoussa, Paros. There\u2019s a lot of background noise, people chatting, drills drilling, cars revving\u2014but we left it all in because it felt real. And that\u2019s what this episode is: real. The sound quality is a bit shit. Apologies. If you like it, and we keep this format, it will improve. I\u2019m not quite sure what's going on at the moment. Life feels messy. Confusing. I feel as if something has cracked open in me. Maybe it\u2019s grief. Maybe it\u2019s the start of a new season. Maybe both. I don't know. And that's what this episode is: Not knowing. Me, trying to untangle something I can\u2019t fully name yet, and Brian offering his ever-wise and patient thoughts. This episode is about grief\u2014what it looks like when you\u2019re in it: the confusion, the uncertainty, the messiness, the ache of something ending, or beginning, or both. It\u2019s also about shame. About the fear of being seen\u2014really seen. About how hard it can be to hit publish when you're sharing something vulnerable. About how I listened back to a recent episode and cringed\u2014not because I wasn\u2019t being real, but because I was.   This is us, a husband and wife, in the middle of the mess, figuring it out as we go. If you\u2019re in that place too, I hope this episode feels like a warm hand on your back. Thank you for giving us your time and for offering us this space to figure things out. Please reach out by email. I answer every single message.  email: liz@itsadrama.com   My heart beats with yours. Kia Kaha. Liz and Brian x PS: If you haven't yet joined my inner circle of friends, my life-letter readers, please do. You will be the first person I share everything with. I'd love to have you. Go here to join us.   Get Liz's book, \u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060THE TRAVEL BOG DIARIES\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060\ud83d\udcd5 (now available on AUDIO) A hilarious memoir of how Liz and her family travelled the world for a year (with very little money and far too many hormones!)   \u2764\ufe0f Like what you heard? Please rate and \u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060review the It's a Drama Podcast here\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060, or if you are on Spotify, please review us over there. Your short review helps us massively and encourages us to continue!   \ud83c\udfe1 Want to know how we travel for FREE? We use (and LOVE) Trusted Housesitters. If you want to join us in using TrustedHousesitters to travel the world, c\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060heck out these beautiful houses\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060 and pets that are currently available & waiting for YOU to HOUSESIT! Once convinced that housesitting is for you, use our exclusive discount code to get a WHOPPING \u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060\u206025% off HOUSESITTING by going here\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060!    \ud83d\udfe9 looking for the BEST Travel Insurance? There is only one company that we use (and only ever use when we travel), and that is World Nomads. Over the years, we've made three claims (sorry, guys), and each time the service has been superb. Check \u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060World Nomads out here\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060!   Podcast Show Page: \u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060Click Here\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060 Follow us on \u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060YouTube\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060 Read our\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060\u2060 It's a Drama blog ","author_name":"It's a Drama Podcast","author_url":"https:\/\/itsadrama.com\/podcast\/","html":"