{"version":1,"type":"rich","provider_name":"Libsyn","provider_url":"https:\/\/www.libsyn.com","height":90,"width":600,"title":"Jessica Loses Jen To Addiction","description":"In this heartfelt episode of The Surviving Siblings Podcast, host Maya Roffler welcomes Jessica Meyer, a bereaved sibling who lost her younger sister, Jen, to fentanyl addiction in 2021. Jessica opens up about the deep bond they shared growing up in a tight-knit Mexican-Jewish family and how addiction slowly dismantled their lives. Jen was so much more than her addiction\u2014an empathetic, talented athlete and the life of every room she entered. Jessica walks us through Jen\u2019s undiagnosed Tourette\u2019s and ADHD, how she began self-medicating with Ambien as a teenager, and how this evolved into decades of addiction, multiple rehabs, and painful relapses. Jen later found purpose helping others through recovery\u2014but her battle with addiction continued in secret. Jessica shares the heartbreaking story of Jen\u2019s final days, her passing just 48 hours after her daughter left for college, and the raw aftermath of losing her lifelong best friend. She also reveals the shocking discovery of a drug trafficking ring tied to Jen\u2019s death, her fight for justice, and the family\u2019s grief journey that followed. This powerful episode is an unflinching look at sibling loss through addiction and the devastating reality of fentanyl-related deaths. Jessica\u2019s vulnerability, courage, and passion to honor Jen\u2019s legacy through her jewelry brand, Bullet Girl, is a tribute to both pain and purpose. In This Episode: (00:01:00) \u2013 Jessica & Jen's Bond Jessica shares their close-knit childhood, imaginative games, and growing up inseparable in a loving family. (00:03:00) \u2013 Early Signs: Tourette's, ADHD & Ambien Use Jen\u2019s tics and impulsivity went undiagnosed for years. Ambien use in her teens became the beginning of her addiction journey. (00:08:00) \u2013 The Beginnings of Addiction Jessica reflects on Jen\u2019s coping mechanisms, her early experimentation, and how recreational use escalated. (00:12:00) \u2013 College, Trauma, and First Rehab Jen\u2019s assault trauma, college struggles, and introduction to harder drugs like crystal meth and cocaine are revealed. (00:19:00) \u2013 Marriage, Motherhood, and Addiction\u2019s Grip Despite marrying and becoming a mom, Jen\u2019s addiction deepened\u2014leading to lost custody and deteriorating health. (00:24:00) \u2013 Boundaries, Guilt, and Tough Love Jessica painfully discusses the limits she had to set and the guilt of choosing distance the week before Jen passed. (00:28:00) \u2013 Jen\u2019s Role Helping Others in Recovery Jen found strength in working at a rehab center\u2014offering guidance to others, even as she privately relapsed. (00:33:00) \u2013 The Day Jen Passed Jessica walks us through the traumatic discovery of Jen\u2019s body, the heartbreaking final hug, and the unanswered questions. (00:41:00) \u2013 Toxicology, Fentanyl, and Black Tar Heroin Jessica shares her detective work uncovering her sister\u2019s fentanyl use, her dealer\u2019s identity, and how evidence led nowhere. (00:49:00) \u2013 Justice Denied: The Aftermath Despite a paper trail and drug dealer identification, no legal justice has been served for Jen\u2019s death\u2014fueling the family\u2019s heartbreak. (00:56:00) \u2013 Shame, Stigma, and Speaking Out Jessica talks about the stigma of fentanyl deaths, public silence, and the pain of people not seeing Jen beyond her addiction. (01:01:00) \u2013 Bullet Girl Jewelry & The Beautiful Struggle Jessica shares the story behind her jewelry line, the letter Jen wrote her, and the upcoming tribute collection called The Beautiful Struggle. (01:07:00) \u2013 Advice for Grieving Siblings Jessica urges listeners to give themselves grace, avoid shame, and stay grounded in love\u2014not fear\u2014through the grief journey This episode is sponsored by Bullet Girl Jewelry  Connect with Jessica:  Email: info@bulletgirl.com Instagram: https:\/\/www.instagram.com\/bulletgirljewelry\/ Instagram: https:\/\/www.instagram.com\/bulletgirl111\/ Connect with Maya: Podcast Instagram: https:\/\/www.instagram.com\/survivingsiblingspodcast\/ Maya's Instagram: https:\/\/www.instagram.com\/mayaroffler\/ TikTok: https:\/\/www.tiktok.com\/@survivingsiblingspodcast Twitter: https:\/\/x.com\/survivingsibpod Website: thesurvivingsiblings.com Facebook Group: The Surviving Siblings Podcast YouTube: The Surviving Siblings Podcast Patreon: https:\/\/www.patreon.com\/TheSurvivingSiblingsPodcast   ","author_name":"The Surviving Siblings\u00ae","author_url":"https:\/\/www.thesurvivingsiblings.com","html":"