{"version":1,"type":"rich","provider_name":"Libsyn","provider_url":"https:\/\/www.libsyn.com","height":90,"width":600,"title":"Episode 160 - When actually getting pregnant feels scary. (Even when you really want the baby)","description":"Let\u2019s cut the fertility fluff. You say you want the baby. And I 100% believe you. But the real question is: Does your nervous system\u2014the bodyguard of what gets let in\u2014believe it\u2019s actually safe to receive this? This week\u2019s episode is not for the surface-level manifesting girlies. This is for the woman who\u2019s done so damn much and still feels like she\u2019s stuck in fertility purgatory. Because here\u2019s what no one tells you:  Sometimes, it\u2019s not the heartbreak you\u2019re scared of anymore. It\u2019s the vulnerability of letting yourself have it. This episode will hit if: You see your baby in a meditation\u2014soft cheeks, tiny toes, you even feel their energy in the room with you\u2014and without even thinking, you snap your eyes open and shake it off like it was too much. Too real. Too soon. You tell your friend, \u201cHonestly, I\u2019m okay either way.\u201d But you feel your throat tighten\u2014because you\u2019re not. Not really. You just don\u2019t want to sound desperate. You told yourself you\u2019d rest today\u2026 but suddenly you\u2019ve \u201caccidentally\u201d created a 12-point plan for optimizing your fertility routine again. Spoiler: That\u2019s not self-sabotage. That\u2019s nervous system survival mode just doin\u2019 its thang. This week on the pod, we\u2019re diving into: 4 reasons why receiving can feel like a threat, not a reward. How perfectionism kills your ability to hold paradox which is what regulates your nervous system. And how to stop managing the fertility journey like a job ...and start actually becoming the woman who can let it in that baby!  LISTEN NOW! And if this episode lands like truth in your bones? Omg you have to join my new program HELD at www.spenserbrassard.com  It\u2019s where we stop gripping, overthinking, and efforting... and start building real capacity to receive. Because yes, you want the baby.  But deep down? You want so much more than that. You want your softness back. Your peace. Your permission to have a full, juicy, supported life And that\u2019s exactly what we\u2019re practicing together inside HELD. We start May 7. It\u2019s $149 Let this be the season you stop pretending you\u2019re fine with \u201cmaybe someday.\u201d  Let this be the season you become the woman whose God damn ready to receive. ","author_name":"Fertile Ground: A mind-body approach to getting pregnant - without it taking over your life.","author_url":"http:\/\/www.spenserbrassard.com","html":"