{"version":1,"type":"rich","provider_name":"Libsyn","provider_url":"https:\/\/www.libsyn.com","height":90,"width":600,"title":"244 - Two Hundred Fourty Four","description":"Please visit breakerwhiskey.com for more information or to send a message to Whiskey's radio. Breaker Whiskey is an Atypical Artists production created by Lauren Shippen. If you'd like to support the show, please visit patreon.com\/breakerwhiskey. As a patron, you will also receive each week's episodes as one longer episode every Monday. ------ [TRANSCRIPT] [click, static] You want to explain what? All of it? You want to explain everything to me, is that what you\u2019re saying? Because I\u2019ve said it before and I\u2019ll say it again\u2014you can transmit as long a message as you want, just make sure it repeats and I\u2019ll sit by the radio and transcribe it all out.  When we got that message, Harry asked me what an explanation would change for me. She wants to know if I\u2019ll\u2014if you really do tell us everything and it all makes sense and the world becomes clear, and after all of that, it really is true that killing Junior would put us back\u2026would that change my perspective on it.  And I\u2014well, I told her I don\u2019t know, because I don\u2019t know. I can\u2019t know, not really, until I know what I don\u2019t know right now. When I don\u2019t have the information, I can\u2019t predict how it might change what I think.  But if I\u2019m honest with myself, I really doubt it would change that much. I\u2019m not a killer. I don\u2019t want to be a killer. I know that technically I am, but I\u2014well, I don\u2019t know! I don\u2019t feel less guilty about Billings just because I didn\u2019t mean to kill him, I still fought with him. But Harry seems to think it\u2019s different and that\u2019s what I don\u2019t understand.  How does she look at Pete and decry what he did and then look at me and say it\u2019s okay and I can do it again\u2014I killed a man and can kill his son and that\u2019s not as bad as what Pete did. It doesn\u2019t make any sense to me, that logic. And I can\u2019t imagine a world in which Harry would want to do this particular bit of dirty business herself so it would be - it would be me. It doesn\u2019t matter\u2014I\u2019m not entertaining the idea. No matter what we learn. No matter what you tell us.  [click, static] [beeps] .. .-..-. .-.. .-.. \/ - .-. .- -. ... -- .. - \/ ... .- ..-. . \/ .-.. --- -.-. .- - .. --- -. I\u2019ll transmit safe location ","author_name":"Breaker Whiskey","author_url":"https:\/\/www.atypicalartists.co\/breaker-about","html":"