{"version":1,"type":"rich","provider_name":"Libsyn","provider_url":"https:\/\/www.libsyn.com","height":90,"width":600,"title":"Surrender and Trust Life to Unfold its Magic plan for You","description":"My died just 2 years ago, only two weeks before my daughter, Hunter was born.   He always reminded me of my own power and said, \u201cyou get to write your story.\u201d   Having him pass away so young was not part of my story that I would\u2019ve written.   Experiencing a miscarriage, cancer scare, 42 weeks of 28 blood draws and the passing of my favorite person all in 2 years, I\u2019ve realized we don\u2019t have control of all of the details or the outcome.   It was bittersweet to experience Life and Death simultaneously. Holding gratitude and sorrow, delight and anger, fullness and hopelessness in both hands and heart.   Through these years, I\u2019ve learned we don\u2019t actually get to write all of our story, but it helps when we trust Life\u2019s plans, surrender to its timing and baring of its gifts.    Never easy, but always worth it.   My dad\u2019s favorite name was Hunter. He divinely died on the Hunter moon.   There were so many simple and spiritual moments around his death and Hunter\u2019s birth:   On the morning I found out he died, google maps rerouted us 4 times off I-5, out of rush hour traffic onto a 2-lane country road overlooking vineyards and a beautiful sunrise. On my worst day, I felt a moment of peace. Never being on that road before, I asked where we were, and my mom said this was your dad\u2019s favorite way to drive to your home. Magic.   I remember after 2-weeks of non-stop crying, chest aching, eyes crimson and swollen, we said our final goodbye on a Friday afternoon, and I held his cold hand and cried all over him. The next day my water broke (2 weeks early), as if my dad was holding me, urging me to stop suffering, giving us a gift of new life. Magic. The Eagle who swooped in front of my window while I was writing about him and dropped a feather to the ground. This happened twice! The dragonflies who always show up when I think about him. More Magic.   Maybe they\u2019re just coincidences. I\u2019d rather believe they are divine signs, little moments of magic reminding us to stay awake to Life.     I believe there is magic, even in dark times. We just have to be present to it.   What are some signs that are showing up for you?   Before we had Hunter, I did fertility testing, because I\u2019m considered geriatric pregnancy (wrong, just wrong!) and the doctor said I would be lucky to have just one child.   What a pleasant surprise to be pregnant again, this time with a baby boy!    My heart breaks knowing my dad won\u2019t be able to be with another grandchild. When sorrow begins to drag me down, I remember to stay open and look for the gifts in the situation. Trust my journey.   Our baby is due April 1st, 2021 . . . my parent\u2019s anniversary.    Life whispers to you and gives you gifts of support.   You just have to stay awake to hear it and be patient enough to let Life unfold it\u2019s divine plan for you.   I guess my dad was right. You do get to write your story. Or at least how you show up in your story.   Love you dad.  Thank you for continuing to be my biggest teacher.   I\u2019m seeing and receiving all of the little signs and the magic of Life. Are you?   Wishing you lots of little signs of Joy this week.   Stay open and let Life\u2019s divine magic unfold for you in it\u2019s own divine timing. Trust that everything you\u2019re experiencing is exactly where you\u2019re meant to be.   You know I always love hearing from you! Can you do me a favor? If this podcast resonated with you, take a screenshot and share on Instagram and tag me. Also, if you haven\u2019t already, please leave a review and subscribe so others can find me too.   If you weren\u2019t able to sign up the Self Love Lab online course with the live group coaching calls, the program is now available to purchase on my website audreysuttonmills.com Also stay tuned for my yearly signature course SOUL SCHOOL starting next year! ","author_name":"MINDFUL PAUSE PODCAST","author_url":"http:\/\/www.audreysuttonmills.com","html":"